Johnathan and I are no longer. I haven't talked to him in about 2 weeks. I have even started seeing someone new...let's move on to that, shall we?

Joshua is adorable. I just don't know how I lucked out finding him at that party, but I did. He blows my mind in bed. We have so much in common and have a lot of fun together. He is attractive, smart, and has his shit together. He's pretty anal and organized like I am, so this sounds like a pretty good match to me. I'm not going psycho over this guy like I have in the past. I'm letting things happen just a day at a time, and everything is working out so far. I know all I need in this life is myself...that I can take care of me with or without a man.

I think Johnathan is crying the blues and has realized what a good thing he had. He never should have cheated on me. I'm a little glad he did (yeah, sounds weird), but I think that if he hadn't have done that, I would never have left him. Johnathan really wasn't doing much for me emotionally, spiritually, or physically. I couldn't depend on him for anything, most definitely not the truth. He lied to me so many times. He made promise after promise that he would renig on. He still doesn't have his license, and I don't know when he ever will. I just don't think he could take care of me....

Anyways, just wanted to let anyone out there who quite possibly reads this that I am still alive and kicking.

School starts in August. I have two very close friends getting married this fall. My anxiety is at an all time low. Work is going great. I got a raise for working 2nd and 3rd shifts with the new shift differential. I'm hanging in there for now.



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